for real..

So, I've  had  this blog for a month now.. and I just went back a read all my post and realized how bitchy I sounded.. aaaahaa..sooo I deleted them, I'm really not a bitch. I swear. 

I guess I'm just sick of everybody thinking they are SO original, when truly they are not.  - at all. In fact I find that when people claim to be "different" they are actually more ordinary and boring then the average.  I don't find it complimentary that I have influenced people to the point where they change they're ways and make up lies just to try to be something more like me.  I find it sad and pathetic.. 

I just don't get it... Don't you realize that everyone can see right through you? 

Some people are just so fake, it is disturbing...

Why are people constantly looking for labels. And honestly I am appalled  how far some people will go to try to be something they are ENTIRELY not.  

If there is one thing I am certain about myself.. it's that I have always stayed true to what I want. My passions are untouchable and they are not influenced by anyone else.  Yes I HAVE been influenced by OTHERS, we all are... but when I commit to something.. whether it is my diet, my artistic pursuits, the color of my hair, the clothes i wear..  my studies... my major.. my day to day activities... whatever! it is because it is what I want to do. This is how I live my life.

Fortunately, I have lately been meeting more and more people who are alike me in this way.. and it is such an attractive trait. Makes me smile. =)

I am not just a girl

A lady, a woman

I am the blinding sun on your horizon

..the warm breeze that calms your soul

I am the demise to your loveless wonder

...the starving child within you

Not just a girl,

I am everything and nothing all at once.